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I have found your web site and like your prayer support very much. I warn
you this is a bit long but yet its only a summary of the most important things. Thanks for bearing with me.
Actually now through my study of deliverance, it was erotic mysticism. And even though I
knew that mysticism was wrong, thatís what invaded me. Of course, this was strong delusion. I just didnít know what it was. Iíd be praying or something, and all of a sudden, you feel a strong intimacy. Almost, it has you convinced that
itís the intimacy that the Lord seeks with us. And so you think its ok. Itís not exactly sexual. But itís deeper than that, and far more dangerous too. It centers in the middle of the body, an ecstasy of some sort. I donít know how to
describe it. It builds and builds, then explodes I guess, and you feel a Ďfalseí love that is well beyond words. It looked like a tidal wave once, that washed over me. Mysticism focuses on these sort of experiences: intimacy with the Lord,
holiness, consecration; yet it leaves out the most important basics of what Jesus is all about, it draws you away. I am almost in disbelief as I write this. How could I, having been so well educated in the truth in my whole life, get
caught up in this. I know now. It had me convinced that through these last few months, I was fine. My wounds were healed from past events in life. And Iím just waiting on the Lord till he brings me my directions. I actually used those
wounds. I wanted to just stay home and pray all the time. I was very passive about life, just ministering to the Lord. It is not by any means wrong, but the goal of the demons is to keep the Christian out of the way and become oblivious to
life as they attack and take over which they almost did. These things are important: prayer and ministering to the Lord. But the demons can also use it deceptively to slowly take control.
One day as I was praying, I thought I had felt/seen a real um...powerful cloud above me. It
had me convinced it was God. I was so in awe, so duped. The next day, the same thing happened. It came and picked me up...I was still on my knees but I was so dizzy as I went upwards. What I saw must have been stars then a planet (!) and
they had me thinking I was being shown something awesome. How fooled I was. Then I felt kinda left there. I didnít know where I was, and this continued on for a few weeks, maybe a month or 2. I would go on with life, normally, but
disoriented, and started having dizzy spells. I had no idea what was going on. I had heard the word star travel during this, but I dismissed it and even rebuked the thought and ďcounteredĒ it with Scripture. Little did I know. All this
time, I had been living life as I had before, submitting myself to the Lord, yielding to the Holy Spirit, just feeling like the devil was finally leaving me alone to get on with my ministry to the Lord. Not that itís bad of course but I
understand the purpose now. Iím still trying to digest all these myself. Meanwhile, they were distracted by the feeling of moving, I could see little ďstarsĒ move when Iíd close my eyes, or open them. And it was getting worse. Then as I
was praying (my prayer life never changes, its just that this stuff invaded), I felt something come over my body, a beam. I saw a beam going through my body. I felt it too. Twice I did that. Eyes open or closed, I saw it. Then I started
shaking really bad, and as it subsided...(during this period of time I remember now picking up ďPigs in the ParlorĒ but not knowing why) I felt what I can only say... warm hands on my shoulders, and I had been feeling really really cold
the past few days, so it was very noticeable. During this whole time, I had seen a cloud, now that I think about it, it was not as bright as the very first I saw. Not dark either. They had me thinking it was the Holy Spirit. I feel stupid
saying this, I know better...I know better. And ďheĒ had become very close to me. So deceptive. Christians have no clue how deceived most of them are. I never in a lifetime would have believed this stuff. NEVER. Yet here I was. So this
cloud had been with me, now I see vast differences pretty much. The warm hands...oh yeah. It was at that point, I almost started snapping out of something...and wondering if this whole thing was ďof GodĒ. The beam thing really shook me up.
Little by little, it was like I was realizing an awful, shocking truth, and it was hard for me to accept it. So hard and very disappointing too. I never believed it. When I heard their true nature did I get it. My mom had been dealing with
her own stuff regarding deliverance, and that had to do with alien spirits. She and her brother saw an actual UFO at the same time, and both were talking about the details the other day. It came for 2 nights. The last night, he ran to her
room, she stayed to watch what it did and doesn't remember the rest of the night. I found out later that everything that has happened with myself and her are all under this grouping. This all came from the hippie days. Iím from New Mexico,
the land of enchantment. It abounds there. I never believed in this stuff, even though my dad would take us to look for UFOís. Its still hard for me to swallow. But these experiences were most real.
These particular spirits are responsible for the things I have experienced, according to a
deliverance minister. So now, basically, I have repented for everything that had happened, even though it was in ignorance, and according to the demon busters.com site. Thatís what I had been experiencing in dreams and awake, though I
truly believe that the warm hands were the Lordís, saying Hey...wake up!! This is not me. It took a day or so to snap out of it but I felt lost. Meanwhile, the demons are so royally pissed that I turned on them basically, and they have
turned on me. The other night in a dream, one told me he was going to take over me, and something about punishment and I woke up and said ďYou donít have the authority to do anything! and I let him know I was the property of Jesus. I had
recommitted my life to the Lord of course and every part of me is covered by the blood. In righteousness Iím established, etcetera. Punish me...as if. Yet I know I have been given power over them...Now I could write more volumes on what
Iíve done in spiritual warfare and have regained major territory. And I fully realized, admitted, confessed and repented...renounced too.... it was so hard to believe. So hard.
I have never intentionally dabbled in occult mind you. My momís husband has admitted
practicing witchcraft against me. Heís mad at me for throwing him in jail 2 times for domestic violence. He is currently separated from my mom. When he comes, it is when I see most of them. I have broken curses, etc. I have been confessing
the Word, and that strengthens me quite a bit. Many of them have left. There was one that circled me all the time, a big one. And I dealt with him. Heís gone, I started circling him. I could see him and kept telling him about what a loser
he is and what a winner I am because of Jesus, etc. etc. etc... Many have left, I have felt them move around in my body. It is rapidly diminishing. I wrote this on 8/9. Itís only been since around 8/2 when I snapped out of all this. Iím in
partial fasting during this whole time. Again, several have left. The other night they mimicked a bad heart attack. Theyíve really been working in my heart area, trying to wear out my heart, telling me they were gonna kill me, and leave my
mom to raise my son (thatís a whole different story). Yet the demons my mom has been battling tell her the same thing. Iíve been fasting myself and continually studying the Word, getting as built up as I can, allowing the Lord to show me
the truth of the situation, and Iím still shocked. How could I ever have gotten into that?
I have found someone who had been seeing what I have seen. Iíve seen whitish filmy things
floating through the house, and others that were almost invisible, then yet others that were black...see them meld together, hanging around my room, touching me, etc...Itís like a distortion moving around. A former occult member wrote she
has seen them, and sometimes there was a smell of smoke, which are both what I have experienced. Iíve done all I know to do in the binding and casting department, and they reinforce. I told them they were forbidden from reinforcing in
Jesus name and it helped somehow. Its a tense situation. Iím not afraid at all. I know Iím assured of victory without a doubt. The Lord showed me myself fully armed, advancing towards an enemy whoís at the edge of the cliff, and Iím about
to push him off.
Itís just why do I see them. In a way its been a very confusing situation. Theyíre very
deceptive. When the bible says Satan comes as an angel of light, itís the truth. Thatís what threw me as I was going by what they looked like and thought I could trust them. Another deception. You donít go by that. You go by what the Lord
shows you, discernment. See I knew this stuff all along.
At one point, when I realized astral travel was involved, I was shocked but felt led to say,
ďIn the name of Jesus put me back where the Lord intended for me to be, and in the right dimensionĒ. Imagine that! I started falling! I was so dizzy...I was like dropped...I said also, ďLord, send angels to come and get me, and put me back
where I am supposed to be, I went faster but wasnít as dizzy...and somehow I knew there were 3 angels with me. 2 on the side and one on top of me. I donít know how I knew this. Itís like my spirit has become unusually sensitive to the
spirit world, I just wish it wasnít demons I see..I asked the Lord to only make me become aware of what he intended for people to be aware of, and anything else out of His will, let it cease. After reading your site I get it now. So I was
on my way down, back to where I was supposed to be I guess. I called the deliverance minister. She said if Iím not back in 15 minutes, call her. (ROFL!! that was the funniest thing I ever heard). Anyway after half an hour I called her and
said I noticed I was in familiar territory...I donít know how I knew this. I felt like I touched down but I think while I sleep they try it again. I commanded them to put me back and they did, and asked for angels to come and make sure
they donít do it again.
Thereís still other attacks while I sleep. Last night, I had a dream that something was
holding me down. I couldnít move. No matter what I said, it wouldnít let go. I woke up and felt the same thing on my shoulder right where I was being held down in the dream. Only I could move this time. So I got up and had a ďtalkĒ with
it, did more warfare, and went to sleep for a bit.
So I would highly appreciate prayer. I know my rights, who I am in Christ. I just need
insight or something into this intense battle. Itís almost like seeing them in a distraction. When I try to pray, theyíll do stuff like a ďwhirlwindĒ around me. I can see it but its not their attempts that work. The Lord has really helped
me keep centered on Him, my eyes on Him, etc. But itís a fierce battle. To God be all the glory for sure, Heís brought me so far. Truly, whether I make my bed in hell, He is there, or whether I ascend into the highest heavens (how does
that scripture go...) He is there. He saved my life again. like I said, theíre really really pissed for me ďturning againstĒ them. But no weapon formed against me shall prosper. I like 2 Sam 22 or 23...Itís all about defeating my
enemies...I read to them often, assuring them I know my power and authority in Christ is FAR greater than theirs.
Itís amazing, how many ministers these days donít get it, had I not experienced this, I
wouldnít have either. Yet of course, I truly want my life to be used for His glory, I have given up my former career, wanting to be used for His purposes, yet for the right reasons this time...to take back the territory the devil stole,
and seeing the captives set free. Too many Christians remain too passive. I know I was one.
I know this was a really long one, but I truly needed prayer support, and I thank you for
bearing with me. This is something that I never thought was real...and it was quite a shock. Yet I know victory is assured, I need strength and discernment to know how to deal with these...(according to Job 30 in the Living Bible (its
funnier in the Living Bible)) stupid, useless fools. <grin>
My mom herself is really going through it. Sheís really freaked out/panicked. She
experiences similar burning torment and feels like its going deeper and deeper, leave her feeling eaten alive/destroyed inside, and is really having a hard time with knowing how to fight. Sheís done this her whole life yet this has been
unreal. She anointed my brotherís bed, and something major major attacked her, resulting in this burning. I know how she feels. I went through 2 days of it. Sheís going on 3 or so. The deliverance minister is doing all she knows to do, and
is well experienced. After being attacked she felt a drilling in her head, then the burning. I am helping her get stronger on the Word and she is starting to not feel so lost in this whole thing. But we need major prayer support. One other
big problem in her, according to the deliverance minister, is soul fragmentation. So she is having a hard time fighting in spiritual warfare in general. But now that sheís reading the Word out loud, confessing it, helped tremendously. They
told both of us weíd be dead in a few days. I know how to respond to it but my mom is not so sure, and feels panic coming on. Weíre not ďbaby ChristiansĒ but do need support. She feels unable to do whatís necessary to advance in the
battle, as is described in your site and others. Sheís very desperate.
Yet...Through our God, we shall do valiantly...for it is he, that shall tread down our
Iíd say...mainly I need to know how to. Letís say, first of all get these things cleared
out. Iíve done everything under the sun...volumes. Iím on a fast, going on second week I think. I am very familiar with deliverance, but I need to know specifics of the situation. It all tends to be very confusing yet I understand most of
it. I need to know how to specifically deal with these morons I see, I do the basics, but need revelation in this area. No one except demon stompers seems to have dealt with those that see them like I do, or at least no one mentions it.
Iíve gone through a large list of curses to break them, etc. etc. etc. The battle has been fierce, itís been an eye opener, but I know, every time the enemy strikes I get stronger.
<<There were a few times though that my feelings pick up the spirit of other people.
That is when I know quickly that a person has bitternesss or resentment. The first time I noticed this was when I was in a friendís house. In the middle of conversation, his teenage daughter coming home from school passed by me. A mild
pain pricked my heart.>>
Is that what it is, when I look at someone, I feel that same thing, and didnít know what it
was...? Or sometimes I feel something touch my finger, etcetera. Only I can see it. In fact Iíve been dealing with the heart pain/racing. Dunno if itís related, but it stops when one of those ďcloudsĒ is commanded to move away from me.
Only it comes back a while later, over and over. There are several other things going on after reading your site like this that Iíve felt and it all makes sense now. I now understand most of the questions I have in this letter after going
through your site I must say, and have a better idea how to approach this. Thank God I found you!
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